13.02.03 | 9:44 pm
For Justin, on Valentines
The love of my life.
Wishes of love and happiness on this special day, I send to you.
Though my heart breaks knowing that I cannot hold you, and that in your arms you hold another.
"'Never look back,' we said
How was I to know I'd miss you so?
Loneliness up ahead
Emptiness behind
Where do I go?
And you didn't hear
All my joy through my tears
All my hopes through my fears
Did you know?
Still I miss you somehow
From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
You were my first love
You were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love
I never knew love
'Till there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart
'Baby,' I said,
'Please stay. Give our love a chance for one more day'
We could have worked things out
Taking time is what love's all about
But you put a dart
Through my dreams
Through my heart
And I'm back where I started again
Never thought it would end
You promised yourself
But to somebody else
And you made it so perfectly clear
Still I wish you were here now
'Never look back,' we said
How was I to know I'd miss you so?"
Britney Spears, From The Bottom Of My Broken Heart
To my first love, Justin Panté. To feel your lips on my skin again, to feel your hand in my hair, to see your eyes light up and your mouth smiling at me. To feel kindness from you, even as a friend, no longer as a lover. To feel warmth, friendship, happiness, and kindness from you. That is all I would wish for on this Valentines Day.
And I would tell the world of the most amazing man I've met yet. And the perfect and untouchable love we once had. A love that can never be compared to.
"Lovers come and go. Some may be better, some may be worse. But none will ever match your first."
And I hold that to you Justin. Until the end of days.
Love Songs For Justin (you once made me a CD called 'Love Songs For Mel'. I broke it, after we broke up. Much like many other things that you gave me or that reminded me of you.)
- Britney Spears, From The Bottom of My Broken Heart
- Brandy, Have You Ever?
- Gabrielle, Dreams
- Lifehouse, Everything
- 3T, Anything
- Westlife, Swear It Again
- Ewan McGregor, Your Song, Come What May
- Goo Goo Dolls, Slide
- blink-182, Going Away To College, Wasting Time, Apple Shampoo, Dammit, First Date
- Texas, In Demand
- Mary Chapin Carpenter, 10,000 Miles
And given the time, I could come up with a thousand more songs for him.
This moment, this day, this year is filled with love for you.
You shall be forever in my heart, just as I will be in yours.
The love that we shared binds us. A bind that cannot be broken by words. A bind that cannot be matched by any other.
And I'm thankful that out of everyone in this world, it is you.
"This world's an ugly place,
But you're so beautiful to me."
Happy Valentines Justin.
With all my love
Melinda.