03.02.03 | 6:23 am
Complexities
So. Once again, like virtually everything in my life – it’s complicated.
As you can imagine, Andrew didn’t take the news that I’d fallen for his best mate too well. He said he wasn’t blind, that Josh was a great guy and to go for it and he gave me his mobile number. But I knew Andrew better than to buy the “I’m so happy for you” bullshit he was feeding me. Yesterday I think I must have spent about $30 on text messages.
Andrew and I talked for a while in the morning. I told him that if Josh was any kind of a mate, which he is, then he’d know better than to get involved. But then Andrew made the point of “Josh deserves you so much more than I do… What kind of friend am I if I don’t give him the chance the fall in love?” So I was kinda torn there. We both had a good point. Drewz headed off to his grandparent’s with Joey in the afternoon and he started messaging me again when he was home and with Josh, of course. I asked him if they’d spoken (I sent Josh a quick hello earlier that day to see if he had credit, which evidently he doesn’t) and Drewz said he was sitting right next to him. Things were complicated as you can imagine and Andrew ended up spitting at me “Well you can ask him if he likes you cause I’m not”. And I was like; I’d rather not thanks. Why allow room for unnecessary disappointment? It’s really the last thing I want right now. But the bastard ended up asking Josh anyway who said that he didn’t know… he has to sort something with this other chick. I spat the dummy at Drewz saying that he shouldn’t have asked and what made him think that I wanted to know anyway. And we ended up messaging each other for virtually the whole goddamn night, until I fell asleep at around 11:30.
However, I DID get the juice on this other chick. Apparently her and Josh grew up together and they were together in primary school. Yes, that’s right, primary school. Then she moves to Sydney and he doesn’t speak or see her for nine years. Yes, that’s right, nine years. Then she moves back to Perth just recently and he doesn’t know why but he wants/needs to go and see her. I don’t get it. I was trying to get Andrew to explain it to me. I mean… I think there’s gonna be a hell of a difference between primary school sweethearts and two 18 year olds. I mean, for fucks sake, they were nine years old! What kind of relationship can you have at nine years old! I really don’t know what he’s hoping to get out of the whole situation… I’m really confused lol. But I said good luck to him anyway :)
Andrew couldn’t have said it any better. “It’s a vicious circle Mel. You can’t wait for him… he waits for her. And I wait for you…” There’s jealousy all round, probably some broken hearts and I said to Drewz all we can do it try to let it go or wait for the day when someone else stops waiting.
“Only you could make me feel this way” was all he could say.
Too true. Too goddamn mother fucking true.