02.09.02 | 8:56 pm
by myself
I haven't spoke to Justin all night... apart from asking him how the doctor's was. Feels strange. I miss him, but keep telling myself not to call him. I'm not going to let this one go like all the others amd just give in because I miss seeing him and talking to him and saying I love you. It's not personal, because it's not do with Kelly. She can go fuck herself with all her diverse opinions for all I care. And yes Justin that may be one of the first nasty things I've said about her but I'm way past caring.
Because no one understands this time. Not even me. I feel lost... and so alone.
"Do i trust some and get fooled by phoniness?
Or do i trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Because i can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin,
I make the right move but I'm lost within.
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again.
I've lost so much
I'm so afraid
And I'm out of touch
How do you expect
I will know what to do
When all I know
Is what you tell me to.
Dont you (know)
I cant tell you how to make it (go)
No matter what I do, how hard I (try)
I cant seem to convince myself (why)
I'm stuck on the outside."
Linkin Park - By Myself
I might go to bed... let my mind rest. Night guys.