15.03.03 | 6:36 am
I just can't get you out of my head
God I'm so tired... Had so many things on my mind this morning I couldn't sleep though. Sucks ass it does.
I miss Justin. I miss his hands (he had the best hands), I miss his gorgeous eyebrows, his Adam's apple, his shoulder blades, his back and his hips. And those lips, godddamn, lips that you could just kiss for days. I always loved his lips. Not to mention his eyes. Dark and almost brooding, serious and powerful. I'd cry if I saw them look at me.
I wonder if he still wears his ring... I bet he doesn't. He wouldn't wanna around Casey that's for sure.
I wonder if he thinks of me when he opens his wallet, I wonder if my photo is still in there (which is stupid really because I know that its not). I have a photo of Abe, Vic, Zoe and I and one of Amy in my wallet, and one of Garrett and I. I wonder if he thinks of me when he walks past the little hill on the way to TAFE, just before the library, when we got our rings. I wonder if he thinks of me when he walks past the pet store in Carousel. I wonder if he thinks of me when he drives up the freeway. I wonder if he thinks of me when his passenger seat is empty and he has blink-182 blaring from his CD player (WHICH HE STILL OWES ME $50 FOR I JUST REMEMBERED!!!).
"Sometimes I sit at home wondering if she's sitting at home thinkin' of me and wondering if I'm sitting at home thinkin' about her, or am I just wasting my time?"
The beauty of Justin is that he wouldn't waste anytime in telling me that I was wasting my time. *shakes head*. Where's the love, people?
Christ. I just remembered Justin owes me $35 as well. $25 for the pair of $50 pants I paid for (cause he did buy me the Kylie CD) and $10 for oil lol. I hope he thinks of me everytime he puts on those pants and hops in his Corona to listen to his CD player the bastard lol.
So anyway *shrug*. That's life. What can I say? I should have listened to her all those months ago.
"Your boyfriend is an arrogant asshole and treats you like shit. It's too bad you're just a stupid bitch."
You got it, love. I am a stupid bitch, who fell in love with a stupid bastard, and who can't get him out her head or heart.
On a slightly more routine note, going in to Northbridge this morning to go and speak to the manager at Romany before they open shop. I called and made the booking the other day, so I'm gonna go scope it out today and hopefully it should be all good! I gotta stop in at Carousel as well and pick up my top from Ever Forever, catch up with a couple of people, then after Northbridge I can have a good look around Perth for a dress for my party (!!!) and then a coffee at Bocelli's :).
Went round and saw Chris's new house on Thursday which is like, 10 minutes walking distance away. It was so good to see his family again and I stayed for ages and we talked about everything and nothing. Daniel came over after dinner and we went to Lakers for a couple of drinks. Saw a few ppl there from school (no one we particularly liked) then the guys walked me home and I crashed straight away hehe. It was good to catch up with them though :)
Work's been really good all week, busy busy busy, just the way I like it, and I'm learning new things all the time which is even better. Not to mention that I get to wear a suit!!! (As in a jacket and skirt, not like a guy's suit). Anyway, I'm off, looking forward to a good day today!
Much love guys.